20.06.2018 – 37 Weeks Pregnant. Officially classed as “Full Term”
It seems like only yesterday that I saw those two lines on a pregnancy test and now here we are, 37 weeks along and officially classed as full term which means that the baby can come any day. With that being said, I’m a first time mum and I know in most cases babies are usually late and rarely ever come on their due date.
I’m feeling a mixture of emotions.
Excited to see my babies little face, find out the gender and cradle “it” in my arms.
Slightly apprehensive about life with a newborn. People say its hard. How hard? Will I be able to do it?
And then there’s the labour part….
I can honestly recall being a little girl and learning about how we’re born. Coming to the realisation that I came out of my mums you know what. Ewwwand then ouchwas my reaction, like most young children I guess. And from then on the thought of going through labour and giving birth has always been associated with tremendous amounts of unimaginable pain, blood, sweat and tears.
Sounds dramatic and of course over the years I’ve come to realise that millions of people have done it and that it’s simply something you have to experience to have a baby. But positive birth stories are rare, and so there’s no escaping the feeling of dread when you first find out you’re pregnant and having to come to terms with the fact that in nine months time you’ll be experiencing something you’ve always feared. It’s scary.
Everyone deals with it differently. Some ladies will chose to ignore it and take it as it comes when labour starts whilst others will do as much research into it as they can. For some that can freak them out even more, and there’s no right or wrong thing to do. I’m very much a ‘go with the flow’ kinda girl, but I’m also extremely anxious at times and I just knew from the start of my pregnancy that I would need to educate myself but most importantly my mind to be able to deal with the thought of labour and the actual process itself.
After scrolling through the internet, reading through various different blogs, articles and websites, it seemed to be that the most effective way of getting through the pain and staying as calm as possible is to simply breathe. Laughable, right? If only it was that simple… was my initial thought. However the more I explored into it, the more it made sense to me. I’ve learnt relaxation tips before when I was seeing my therapist to help with anxiety and always noticed a significant change in my stress levels whenever I practised the breathing techniques. Nonetheless, it’s not just as easy and straightforward as simply breathing so I joined a 6 week birthing course to teach me the breathing techniques I need to help me through labour.
Every Tuesday evening for an hour and a half I met with other pregnant ladies in the most relaxed environment involving floor mats, artificial candles and calming music. We’d go through gentle pregnancy yoga moves to help with balance and posture, and the lady who was coaching us also gave us antenatal education and taught us about effective calming and relaxation techniques. This in no way stops the pain of labour. But the mind is powerful and learning how to use it and think positively whilst experiencing pain is better than getting lost in the discomfort and fear of it all. I only finished the course last week and absolutely loved it and looked forward to it each week. It’s definitely one thing I’m going to miss.
In spite of everything I’ve done to try and make labour as much of a positive experience as possible, I still don’t think you can ever be fully prepared, especially when you’re a first time mum and so I will be going into the hospital with an open mind. Breathing classes haven’t made me feel superior like I’ll sail through with no pain relief. I might be screaming and swearing an hour into it for all I know. I’m taking whatever the hell I need. If I need an epidural, I’ll take an epidural. If I need a C Section, I’ll need a C Section. It’s just important for me that I stay as calm as possible, and not freak out like I so easily do. And to be quite honest with you, I’m pretty excited about the gas and air! XD
My hospital bag is packed.
We have enough nappies, wipes and clothes.
The moses basket is up.
Some days I feel like I’m ready yet other days I don’t feel ready at all. It’s literally a rollercoaster journey but one that I am very grateful for. I’m nesting real bad. I can’t stop cleaning and if I’m not cleaning I’m consciously looking for things to sort out.
As awkward as things can be with a growing belly, I can say without hesitation that I will definitely miss my bump and the feeling of life moving around inside of me. It’s something you can’t really explain.
It’s just a waiting game now. We’re ready when you are Baby Grice.