I could sit here and type away about how unpleasant the world is with everything that’s happening. I could go on, we all could. I can hold my hands up and say that I’ve been frightened. Frightened to hang about in large crowds and very weary of my surroundings. The whole situation quite simply confuses me and I am no longer stressing myself out trying to make sense of it, or life in general if I’m honest. I’m not here to speak about politics, I wouldn’t say I’m educated enough to be able to have a strong enough opinion, but one thing I do know is that the world is a very crooked place. When these terror attacks occur, it puts everyone in a state of fear. It’s hard to get away from the situation when it’s plastered over the media and everyone’s speaking about it. If you’re like me, it can start really messing with your head. Overthinking is one of the things I do best and I noticed a definite change in my mood when the Manchester Bombings sadly took place. I couldn’t shake it out of my mind for a good few days. I couldn’t see anything positive in it; there’s nothing good about innocent people losing their lives.
Recently I’ve been focused on trying to see and appreciate the good in every situation. Because of this and for my own sanity, I decided to watch all the news footage from that night, one after the other. Instead of experiencing feelings of dread and upset, I focused all my attention on every individual person that was helping in any way. The emergency services and random passer-by’s helping young children get to safety. Off duty police rushed to the scene whilst others extended their shifts. I know that people also offered places to stay, food, clothing and even their own blood! I am fully aware that the person who committed this evil act is linked to a much bigger network, but when I looked at it in a different perspective it proved that the quantity of kind-hearted people most definitely outnumbered that one malicious individual the night of 22nd May. Sometimes it’s hard to see the good under all the bad but focusing on the good certainly made me feel better.
We as humans try to make the best of such terrible circumstances and I know that because of this, the homeless man that pulled shrapnel from people’s faces has now been offered a home and money to get his life back on track. In my opinion it’s important we recognise people like this and that we are contributing value to the lives of others instead of spreading more hate.
I get it, it fucking sucks. All I want is for everyone to get along and be happy but I live in the real world and I know it’s wishful thinking. It’s totally tragic; innocent lives lost, injured and affected all around the world, every month because of terrorism. I started writing this blog post after the Manchester Bombings and I’m finishing it today, 4th June after another terror attack happened last night in London. More life’s lost and more heartbroken relatives – my heart goes out to them all. It saddens me that I am no longer shocked when I turn on the television and see the “breaking news – terror attack” headlines. This is the reality of it. It also upsets me that thousands of innocent Syrian children have died, but this is the shit that is happening in our world and I think we as human beings should try and see the good as well as the bad, for our own stability. As horrible as the London attacks are, it didn’t shake me up as much as I was able to witness the caring people as well. From the first phone call reporting the terror, to the time it took for the police to shoot the killers was just 8 minutes. That’s impressive.
It’s hard, especially when the media cover mostly negative stories every day, but try to look for those little acts of kindness amid the turmoil, because it opens your eyes to the good that still surrounds us. Be kind and do good yourself, because in all honesty that’s all we can really do to avoid the pain and violence in this world from eating us up.
I’m really not your average girl. I’m pretty random, pretty spontaneous. I’m fascinated with the universe, the planets, spiritualism, meditation, the law of attraction. I will always remember that one massive book in my nans ‘library’ room that was all about planets. I’d lose myself in it for hours! It’s mind-blowing how we are just one planet in a massive universe – but I’ll probably end up writing a separate blog post about this matter because I could go on and on.
I love makeup but I love football more. I look like a girly girl but I’m a tomboy at heart. From a young age I’ve been brought up around football. Credit to my dad for that one who even took me to my first football match aged 8 months old at my home team, Portsmouth’s Fratton Park. I was surrounded by it constantly and just grew to love it and the way football is played. I’ve spent many of my days at Fratton park or stood on the side of a football pitch watching my little brother and dads football team play.
Id consider myself creative – sometimes my overactive mind drives me crazy with little ideas. I have to write now to get a lot of it out. I’ll happily sit there for hours colouring fine detail pictures or just sketching. It’s really therapeutic if I’m honest.
Sometimes I just want to become a hippy and not be apart of the outside world or be tied in with the government. Not saying I’m one for politics and I don’t really know enough about it to have much of a say on it but when I put things into perspective with the government and a lot of their rules, laws and “systems” it does really piss me off! I just want everyone to be chilled and loving lol but it’s an unrealistic want when I struggle to even get a smile back from the general public when I’m out. I know it’s easier said than done, especially when people are dealing with shit in their lives, but I think if everyone was a little more upbeat and open and commutated with each other, the world would be a much better place.
I love music. All different kinds of music really, dependant on my mood.. like most people really. My favourite has to be reggae, techno, dnb & hip-hop. I grew up dancing to techno and hip hop music as I competed in freestyle disco and street dance. I think that’s one reason I love a rave so much. And as for reggae, I listened to that whilst in the womb. Bob Marley, like many, is my all-time favourite. I could sit and watch videos about him all day, especially interviews – I love his voice.